it has come to point where it doesnt matter whether you have a shoulder to cry on, someone to talk to, someone just to hug you when your world comes crashing down.

IT DOESNT MATTER.

why?

'cause there aint anyone there at all.

all you need is a good half an hr in the toilet, letting it all go and telling yourself, its ok, you're going to survive. since it's already rock bottom, it can only go up.

i wonder how many people can actually do that.


yesterday i learnt NEVER to believe that anyone will be there for me.
i learnt that so what if you are feeling lousy. it doesnt allow you to sulk and sulk for just the evening. eventually you must even brace yourself up even though you're crumbling inside.

today i realise im stronger than ever. because i dont need you to be there anymore. because your words just portray what you feel: " oh, you mean you didnt know? welcome to the truth"

the stronger i am, the more i cage myself away from you. no point believing anymore.