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Created by OnePlusYou - Free Online Dating
Sunday, March 30, 2008
everytime i stare at this blank slate, my mind just turns into a puddle of nothingness.
very happy for my 21st birthday. *hugs to von, gl, wl, xt for celebrating with me on friday=) the ice cream cake was totally sinful! haha.
SZ series. magnesium alloy cover. interesting texture. 2GB ram. 160GB HD. T8100 2.1GHZ windows vista business. wireless AGN. inbuilt webcam. nvidia graphic card. 13.3 inch and weighs a nifty 1.9kg=)
very happy for my 21st birthday. *hugs to von, gl, wl, xt for celebrating with me on friday=) the ice cream cake was totally sinful! haha.
haha the adidas watch isnt 100% like this. the watch face sides are metal. this is the big version. mine's the smaller one cos my hand's small! i love my sis. even though i think she smells. hahahahaha. just kidding.
SZ series. magnesium alloy cover. interesting texture. 2GB ram. 160GB HD. T8100 2.1GHZ windows vista business. wireless AGN. inbuilt webcam. nvidia graphic card. 13.3 inch and weighs a nifty 1.9kg=)
rose gold and white gold. so delicate i dont dare to wear it! =)=)
lotsa love to my family! haha. my mum got me a bracelet, my sis got me an adidas watch, my dad got me a VAIO. how cool is that. yeah!
it's that little warm fuzzy feeling inside:)
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i didnt win 4D! so annoying haha. my birthdate opened on sunday. what the hell what the hell. *curse swear. my luck was that my birthdate actually opened.. but i didnt seize opportunity of it. WHY DIDNT I THINK OF IT. this always happen to me. life gives me oranges but i have no idea how to make orange juice.
haha. funny. bored. goodfreind's (there is no spelling error) off to indo.. just came back from m'sia snorkelling. i wanna see pics. you forgot my birthday you dumbass. haha. good to have someone to take your mind off things. come back faster before you go NS!
Friday, March 28, 2008
you only want it when it's over. so what's the point? power? strength? dominance? to prove that as long as you have the ability to do such a thing? just because you feel like it?
hidden beneath all that vengence. where are you? as time pass on, you grow darker, more sinister. where are you? where have you gone?
even if i get a million bucks, i still will not be happy. all i want is to see you happy. just for 24 hours. even if it's fabricated. the truth hurts.
there's no such thing as love. it's only power and serving the strong.
hidden beneath all that vengence. where are you? as time pass on, you grow darker, more sinister. where are you? where have you gone?
even if i get a million bucks, i still will not be happy. all i want is to see you happy. just for 24 hours. even if it's fabricated. the truth hurts.
there's no such thing as love. it's only power and serving the strong.
Tuesday, March 25, 2008
Monday, March 24, 2008
it's about finding someone you cant live without, not someone you can live with.
you can live with me, but you can also live without me. i've been a fool for more than two years. a big big silly fool. i thought that you will learn to get over her and keep me within your heart. in the end, you still cant get her out of your life, out of your mind and all i am is just a speck in the corner. maybe i do look like a replacement tire. hMm. you only look for me when you feel like it. the world is cruel indeed. the biz sch advocates coldness of the heart. maybe it's time i learnt that.
when i promised you i wont go anymore, i mean it. i guess i owe you too much. and this is retribution. no matter how hard i tried to avoid this previously, it always occurred. you cant run away from your destiny. maybe mine's to be your plaything, your servant and worthless in your eyes.
love really is blind. blind to all faults.
you can live with me, but you can also live without me. i've been a fool for more than two years. a big big silly fool. i thought that you will learn to get over her and keep me within your heart. in the end, you still cant get her out of your life, out of your mind and all i am is just a speck in the corner. maybe i do look like a replacement tire. hMm. you only look for me when you feel like it. the world is cruel indeed. the biz sch advocates coldness of the heart. maybe it's time i learnt that.
when i promised you i wont go anymore, i mean it. i guess i owe you too much. and this is retribution. no matter how hard i tried to avoid this previously, it always occurred. you cant run away from your destiny. maybe mine's to be your plaything, your servant and worthless in your eyes.
love really is blind. blind to all faults.
Tuesday, March 18, 2008
how to seriously, honestly, delicately contemplate a chocolate.
use two fingers to pinch the sides gently. lift it out of its container. scrutinize it up, down , left right. make sure it's perfect. slowly place it on your tongue. CLOSE YOUR MOUTH. swirl it around in your mouth. chew it, ponder it, contemplate its smooth texture as well as the curt taste of cocoa. let it linger before continuing its journey down into your stomach.
feel the euphoria charging up your soul.
ok. i'm seriously just bored.
chocolate makes you happy!
sigh. i dislike the part about having to spend my birthday the way my family wants it. i told them i'll want to eat with them. but i never said ON MY birthday ITSELF. but family comes first, and you taught me so.
use two fingers to pinch the sides gently. lift it out of its container. scrutinize it up, down , left right. make sure it's perfect. slowly place it on your tongue. CLOSE YOUR MOUTH. swirl it around in your mouth. chew it, ponder it, contemplate its smooth texture as well as the curt taste of cocoa. let it linger before continuing its journey down into your stomach.
feel the euphoria charging up your soul.
ok. i'm seriously just bored.
chocolate makes you happy!
sigh. i dislike the part about having to spend my birthday the way my family wants it. i told them i'll want to eat with them. but i never said ON MY birthday ITSELF. but family comes first, and you taught me so.
to a friend whom i havent seen for years.
actually i understand where you're coming from. i feel the same way. if there was an option, i would probably do the same thing you did. except i dont have the courage, determination you have. i fear. and fear i did. it's hard to accept that people change over time. it's harder to accept that you simply just don't love the person anymore. it's not that you don't care. it's that feeling isnt there anymore.
and you wonder after all that everyone's gone through. all the hard times, the tears and sweat, you thought everything will mend itself sooner or later. but no, the cracks just get bigger and bigger.
just to let you i understand, even though he doesnt.
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i tried to mend it. i tried to bite back my feeling and tears to accomodate you. you never actually tried. you blamed it all upon me. somehow if it failed, it's my fault, not yours.
when i look into your eyes, sometimes i see hurt, sometimes i see annoyance, sometimes i see a faint glimmer of love. mostly i see resignation.
i know im wrong to keep threatening to leave. but i've never actually had to courage to. you never really tried to solve the problem. you merely avoided it. i know im unreliable. but have you actually appreciated all the times i saved your arse?
looking back, there was a lot of things we did to make sure we did not just pack up and leave. on your side and on mine. until you figured i wouldnt leave and you stopped being nice. and when you realised i have the full capability to just pack up and go, you turned nastier.
being kind doesnt mean anything anymore. when i'm try to be nice and put you before myself, i get scolded. even though i get myself into a mess sometimes, i made the effort to save you instead of myself.
maybe in your eyes im just the kid running your errands and doing your legwork, im always stupid and troublesome.
i dont deny that all the times we've spent the past few years have always been on my mind. it will always be part of me and you. afterall, you're the one that taught me how to love, how to give without receiving. and you're the one who showed me hurt as well.
i'm contented with what you've given me so far. but i'll be happier if you could be happy as well.
im here to stay. but if we want to mend what's wrong, i need your help as well. dont give up. dont get angry. i'm still here by your side, unless you want to quit.
the little world of mine
actually i understand where you're coming from. i feel the same way. if there was an option, i would probably do the same thing you did. except i dont have the courage, determination you have. i fear. and fear i did. it's hard to accept that people change over time. it's harder to accept that you simply just don't love the person anymore. it's not that you don't care. it's that feeling isnt there anymore.
and you wonder after all that everyone's gone through. all the hard times, the tears and sweat, you thought everything will mend itself sooner or later. but no, the cracks just get bigger and bigger.
just to let you i understand, even though he doesnt.
~
i tried to mend it. i tried to bite back my feeling and tears to accomodate you. you never actually tried. you blamed it all upon me. somehow if it failed, it's my fault, not yours.
when i look into your eyes, sometimes i see hurt, sometimes i see annoyance, sometimes i see a faint glimmer of love. mostly i see resignation.
i know im wrong to keep threatening to leave. but i've never actually had to courage to. you never really tried to solve the problem. you merely avoided it. i know im unreliable. but have you actually appreciated all the times i saved your arse?
looking back, there was a lot of things we did to make sure we did not just pack up and leave. on your side and on mine. until you figured i wouldnt leave and you stopped being nice. and when you realised i have the full capability to just pack up and go, you turned nastier.
being kind doesnt mean anything anymore. when i'm try to be nice and put you before myself, i get scolded. even though i get myself into a mess sometimes, i made the effort to save you instead of myself.
maybe in your eyes im just the kid running your errands and doing your legwork, im always stupid and troublesome.
i dont deny that all the times we've spent the past few years have always been on my mind. it will always be part of me and you. afterall, you're the one that taught me how to love, how to give without receiving. and you're the one who showed me hurt as well.
i'm contented with what you've given me so far. but i'll be happier if you could be happy as well.
im here to stay. but if we want to mend what's wrong, i need your help as well. dont give up. dont get angry. i'm still here by your side, unless you want to quit.
the little world of mine
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