in a twist of events, it hasnt come full circle. it has merely returned to the initial starting point. and there i am again, staring dejectedly. because i dont know what you want and i dont know what to do.

we shape our own destiny. or does our destiny shape us? are we merely heading towards something pre-decided, pre-calculated? as much as we try to argue, can we only merely change the process and not the outcome?

apparently, my actions and words have not been enough to deter the outcome. it still has come back to the same outcome.

a case of self-fulfilling prophecy? or just plain dumbness.